Hi Peachies. Today I need to share some things on my heart and soul. I need to clear my mind and be honest with you. I'm a mess of emotions and feelings right now. I'm allowing myself to get in my own head and make a mess of the blessings i've been given. Don't worry, this isn't a Dear Diary post. I've already spent my time doing that this morning and it felt good to get those words out on paper and leave them there but I feel like, as bloggers, we like to share the bright and bubbly side of life and sometimes we aren't great about sharing the real moments. The moments we struggle with. That's why I want to share this with you.
This morning I woke up at 6. It's a whole hour and a half earlier than I have been lately. After I laid in bed for 30 minutes I decided I wanted to grab a cup of coffee and sit out on our front porch and read my daily devotional while the sun came up.
Instagram post this morning
Today's devotional really spoke to me & left me feeling inspired so I grabbed my phone and opened my Calm app and meditated then I grabbed my yoga mat and started to do some yoga. Something changed though. Instead of remembering what I had just read in my devotional, "Everything we have-including our lives-is an expression of God's generosity to us", I looked around my house and all I saw was a mess. Every single room is a mess. I spend my days cleaning this house, making it a place of happiness and comfort for my family but to look at it, you can't tell. Now y'all, I realize I'll never live in a house that looks like a museum, nor do I want to. I want my family and friends to feel comfortable in my house but I do like to be able to tell i've done something. I'm blessed to be able to stay at home and take care of my son, my hubby, and our home but I take my role in this family seriously and sometimes it's hard not to feel overwhelmed.
I've been in such an inspired and #girlboss season in my life lately but today I simply feel over whelmed. It's times like these when I realize that I'm creating my own standard of perfection. I'm expecting myself to live up to something I simply can't because perfection isn't real. It's just an idea I've created in my own head. I know that no one expects anything un-realistic from me so why do I expect them from myself?
In January I picked out a word of the year. (You can read that post here.) My word was perfection because it's a word I want to take out of my mind, my head, my heart, and my life. I allow myself to be controlled by this false sense of perfection instead of seeing the blessings in everything. Most of the time I do okay with letting go of that silly thought but sometimes it still sneaks in and steals my joy.
I'm breaking up with perfection today. I'm going to choose happiness instead. My messy house is a sign of a family that's busy laughing, loving, and creating memories together. I'm blessed by the laundry piling up and the dishwasher that needs to be emptied because it means that we have clothes to protect us from the summer sun. It means we sleep comfortably in our favorite pajamas. It means we have food on our tables each day and night. I'm going to remember what I read in my devotional today and live in the generosity the Lord has given me.
I'm not perfect and that's okay.
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Wow, that's such a great perspective and an important reminder. We all are so incredibly blessed, and need to focus on being thankful rather than being overly critical on ourselves. Great post! :)
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad you enjoyed this post. It's something that I know I struggle with and need to remind myself of. I figured someone else might need to hear the same things.
DeleteI do think we all need to get rid of the 'perfectionist' approach, this is definitely an important post! xx Adaleta Avdic
ReplyDeleteThank You Adaleta! I think it's so important to get rid of perfection in our lives. We're only setting ourselves up for hurt by striving for perfection. We need to be happy with what we have and live everyday in the moment.
DeleteThis is a great post...times that I feel overwhelmed is in the times when my Type A perfectionistic personality is rearing it's head. Thanks for this...I'm so glad I came across this.
ReplyDeleteNatasha, I'm so glad that you came across this, too. The type of posts that I like best are the ones that make me say "Yes! Me, too!" I hope that this is one of those for everyone else. Remember, you don't need to be perfect to be happy, in fact, I think that's the thief of happiness. Live in the moment and let go of what really doesn't matter.
DeleteI'm totally like this too and am inspired by your decision to see the blessing that imperfection is pointing out!
ReplyDeleteHeather, I'm so glad that you are inspired by this post and my decision to let go of perfection. Somedays it's really hard but it's something that it important because I feel like it steals my happiness. Learning to live in the moment and let go of what's not truly important has been a game changer for me.
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